I will not ask the world to stop turning

It always takes me forever to get a post up. I’ve been meaning to post this for a while, but I got very busy with finals and preparing for graduation. That’s right, Zoe has a degree in political science. I’m just waiting for grades to be posted to make it official. I’ll get to that later. I guess it will start from the beginning.

Since posting the last entry  a lot has happened. I attended the Mock Banquet, where I watched Wash officially named secretary of the organization and I was actually given the Pillar of Mock Trial award. Hard to believe I will actually be remembered, to be perfectly honest. I highly doubt they will miss me all that much. Something bigger happened that night, more important. Wash said he loved me, and I will talk about that more in a minute.  I thought a lot about the project from the last post, and I think that I may put up poll about it. I wrote two final papers and took three final exams.  Saturday I walked across the stage in my black robe and mortar board, and I now have a bachelor’s degree. That my readers is a brief summary of current events in my life. So let’s talk about some stuff in more detail.

I have this incredibly defined vision of that character I was talking about in the last entry. She’s a brilliant writer, at least she hopes, and is far from perfect. I’d really like to try this little project, especially since until I am able to find work, which is unlikely because people are not interested in hiring only for the summer, I will have a lot of time on my hands. If the project were successfulthen I would have plenty to do. However, I have chickened out because if I get zero readers then its been another failed experiment that wasn’t really worth my effort. Anyway, this is not a particularly interesting segment of the blog so I will move on to something else.

Like I said earlier, the night of the mock trial banquet, which was a few weeks ago, Wash said those three little words. I was really surprised, more so at myself, because I was able to say it back and mean it. I know it sounds like I am being melodramatic, but I wasn’t sure that I would feel this way again, and yet I do. I love him, readers, with all my heart. It’s a huge step forward, and it’s one I am so glad that we are taking. It’s different with Wash, and not in a bad way. You see, Wash is a bit more old-fashioned than I am, but I don’t mind. In fact perhaps its better this way. He doesn’t believe in sex before marriage, and while I have definite views that aren’t exactly the same, he’s more than worth the wait. The reason I think that it may be better this way is that if we wait we are more likely to know that its right. I don’t have doubts, not at all, but I do know that I don’t want to rush into something we aren’t ready for. There are limits and lines drawn, and I try my hardest to remember where they are. It’s a matter of experience, something I have quite a lot of actually; been there, done that, got the t-shirt and key chain. I digress. I have given this man my heart, and I have opened up in a way that I thought I never would. I hope some day we have a future together, one where we are at ease and the lines and limits are a thing of the past. I would not mind spending my life with him, and I hope some day I can. There is this big log house, with a private upstairs, spiral staircase, wrap around porch, front porch swing, and garden in back that is just calling out to be built, and I want to build it with him.

I took a step in that direction Saturday when I graduated. I invited Wash to come to breakfast with part of my family, since he would be sitting with them at graduation. He met my mother, little brother, Nanny, and her husband G at breakfast, and as we were waiting for Wash and G to get umbrellas, my Nanny looks at me with this grin on her face and says “He likes you an awful lot.” I nodded in agreement. She then says “He more than likes you.” I told her I knew that. And then, she nearly gives me a cardiac. “You are going to be telling us something soon. I mean it won’t be long, will it?” For a moment it did not dawn on me that she was talking about becoming engaged, and then it hit me. I thought I was going to die. We aren’t there yet, I mean we are working on it, but we are not there yet. Besides, Wash and I have already talked about how it would probably not be a good idea to get married while I am in law school. I sputtered and explained that to her. My Nanny is an incredibly perceptive woman. Wash went with me to see my Grandmama, and he seems to have made a favorable impression on everyone thus far. Like I said, we are making strides.

Graduation was long, or it felt that way. From standing in the ‘ready room’ waiting to march in the procession, to the stifling gym where we all thought we were going to suffocate. I wound up talking to a few classmates from my polisci courses and then sitting around complete strangers, except for that weird guy who sat behind me. The reader mispronounced my name, which was awesome, and then I couldn’t find my family. I hate the MC a lot, but luckily I will only need to be back long enough to go to Wash’s graduation next year. I should be in law school by then. I still don’t officially graduate untilt he grades are posted, but I’m pretty sure I did. It will be Wednesday before I know for sure. After the ceremony Wash took me home to change then we went out to celebrate. We wound up going to see his paternal grandmother, so now I’ve met her, and then to this really great little burger place in the Boro. After that we just hung out all night, mainly because there is nothing to do in this town.

Well that’s it for now, readers. I’ve bored you long enough, and the man I love, also known as Wash, has sent me a text.

Quote of the Day: “Just so you don’t get complacent we’ve left you a few things to do: AIDS, world hunger, and world peace. And in your spare time you can try to solve global warming and the economic crisis” ~ Brigadier General Terry M. “Max” Haston, talking about the Class of 2009 and what they will face at Spring Commencement 2009, MTSU.